Auntie Diaries歌词 歌手Kendrick Lamar-专辑Mr. Morale & The Big Steppers-单曲《Auntie Diaries》LRC歌词下载

[00:00.000] 作词 : Craig Balmoris [00:00.016] 作曲 : Craig Balmoris [00:00.033] Heart plays in waves, the mind can't figure out [00:02.801] Heart plays in waves, the mind can't figure out [00:05.576] Heart plays in waves, the mind can't figure out [00:08.592] This is how we conceptualize human beings [00:11.302] [00:20.628] My auntie is a man now [00:23.190] I think I'm old enough to understand now [00:26.427] Drinking Paul Masson with her hat turned backwards [00:28.487] Motorola pager off like, "Yes, Jackie" [00:31.040] Blue Air Max's, gold chains and curl kits [00:33.772] '93 Nissan wax job, the earliest [00:35.779] Big social, big personality, vocal [00:38.342] Played underground verbatim and stayed local [00:40.731] My auntie is a man now [00:43.225] I watch him and his girl hold their hands down [00:45.844] Tip of the avenues street lights made his [00:47.707] Thinking, "I want me a bad bitch when I get big" [00:50.340] They walk the corner like California king [00:52.231] Cold hand all up her skirt, cars whistling down the road [00:54.660] See, my auntie is a man now, slight bravado [00:58.157] Scratching the likes from lotto [00:59.691] Hoping that she pull up tomorrow [01:00.929] So I can hang out in the front seat [01:02.366] Six by nines keeping the music up under me [01:04.556] My auntie is a man now [01:06.949] Asked my momma why my uncles don't like him that much [01:09.391] And at the parties why they always wanna fight him that much [01:11.609] She said "Ain't no telling [01:13.717] Niggas always been jealous because he had more women [01:15.903] More money and more attention made more envy [01:17.916] Calling him anything but than broke was less offending" [01:20.373] [01:21.671] My auntie is a man now [01:23.660] I think I'm old enough to understand now [01:25.835] Drinking Paul Masson with her hat turned backwards [01:28.025] Back when it was comedic relief to say "Faggot" [01:30.678] Faggot, faggot faggot, we ain't know no better [01:33.568] Elementary kids with no filter however [01:35.802] My auntie became a man and I took pride in it [01:37.964] She wasn't gay, she ate pussy, and that was the difference [01:40.443] That's what I told my friends in second grade [01:42.751] She picking up from school, they stare at her in the face [01:45.390] They couldn't comprehend what I grew accustomed [01:47.717] We pull off bumpin' quick like it was nothing [01:50.363] My auntie is a man now, what a relationship [01:53.537] I grew up fast, I needed no one to babysit [01:55.863] He gave me some cash then gave me some gang [01:57.674] Cherry freshener on the dash, I never complained [01:59.507] She even cut my hair at the pad, was loving my fade [02:01.443] The first person I seen write a rap [02:03.963] That's when my life had changed [02:06.176] House full of demo, smoke stuck on the window [02:07.747] Cameras on the microphone, all women and men though [02:10.643] My auntie was a man now, we cool with it [02:12.924] The history had trickled down and made us ig'nant [02:16.286] My favorite cousin said he's returning the favor [02:18.390] And following my auntie with the same behavior [02:20.810] [02:21.215] Demetrius is Mary-Ann now [02:22.847] He's more confident to live his plan now [02:25.154] But the family in disbelief this time [02:27.628] Convincing themselves "He ain't living discreet, he's fine" [02:30.086] They said they never seen it in him, but I seen it [02:32.415] The Barbie dolls played off the reflection of Venus [02:35.384] He built a wall so tall you couldn't climb over [02:37.955] He didn't laugh as hard when the kids start joking [02:40.503] "Faggot, faggot, faggot" We ain't know no better [02:42.885] Middle school kids with no filter, however [02:45.322] I had to be very mindful of my good cousin [02:47.707] I knew exactly who he was but I still loved him [02:50.407] [02:51.269] Demetrius is Mary-Ann now [02:53.017] I mean he's really Mary-Ann, even took things further [02:55.902] Changed his gender before Bruce Jenner was certain [02:57.703] Living his truth even if it meant see a surgeon [02:59.969] We didn't talk for a while, he seemed more distant [03:02.751] Wasn't comfortable around me, everything was offensive [03:05.100] But I recall we both had a sick sense of humor [03:07.927] Made raw, but time changes all [03:10.863] [03:11.245] Demetrius is Mary-Ann now [03:12.892] Remember church, Easter Sunday? [03:15.110] I sat in the pew, you had stronger faith [03:17.016] More spiritual when these dudes were living life straight [03:19.701] Which I found ironic 'cause the pastor didn't see him the same [03:22.270] He said my cousin was going through some things [03:24.914] He promised the world we living in was an act on abomination [03:27.432] And Demetrius was to blame [03:29.476] I knew you was conflicted by the feelings a preacher made [03:32.198] Wondering if God still call you a decent man [03:34.636] Still you found the courage to be subservient just to anoint [03:37.492] Until he singled you out to prove his point, saying [03:40.455] [03:40.948] Demetrius is Mary-Ann now [03:42.663] Church, his auntie is a man now, it hurt [03:46.133] He the most 'cause his belief was close to his words [03:48.721] Forcing me to stand now [03:50.739] I said "Mr. Preacher man, should we love thy neighbor? [03:52.901] The laws of the land or the heart, what's greater? [03:55.677] I recognize the study she was taught since birth [03:58.201] But that don't justify the feelings that my cousin preserved" [04:01.045] The building was thinking out loud, bad angel [04:03.511] That's when you looked at me and smiled, said "Thank you" [04:05.529] The day I chose humanity over religion [04:08.210] The family got closer, it was all forgiven [04:10.244] I said them F-bombs, I ain't know any better [04:12.680] Mistakenly I didn't think you'd know any different [04:15.176] See, I was taught words was nothing more than a sound [04:17.726] If everything was pronounced without any intentions [04:20.382] If every second you challenge the shit I was kicking [04:22.490] Reminded me about a show I did out the city [04:25.227] That time I brung a fan on stage to rap [04:27.754] But disapproved the word that she couldn't say with me [04:30.620] You said "Kendrick, ain't no room for contradiction [04:33.040] To truly understand love, switch position [04:35.682] 'Faggot, faggot, faggot,' we can say it together [04:38.208] But only if you let a white girl say 'Nigga'" [by:CRATERUS] [00:00.033]心之所愿 不能用头脑去分析 [00:02.801]心之感悟 不能用精神去思考 [00:05.576]心之跳动 思维无法捕捉 [00:08.592]我们对人类的认知就是这样的 [00:11.302] [00:20.628]我的姑妈现在是个男人了 [00:23.190]随着我长大 我也开始慢慢理解这件事了 [00:26.427]她反戴帽子 喝着Paul Masson（酒的品牌）的白兰地 [00:28.487]拿着摩托罗拉的寻呼机 披着全白的Guess外套 [00:31.040]蓝色的Air Max耐克鞋 金色项链 还有整盒的美发产品 [00:33.772]开着93年的尼桑 打着最新的车蜡 [00:35.779]她是社交达人 性格外向 大大咧咧 [00:38.342]说出口的话都很underground 保持街头的范 [00:40.731]我的姑妈现在是个男人了 [00:43.225]夜幕降临 小巷深处 街灯之下 [00:45.844]我看着他和他的女朋友手牵手 [00:47.707]心里想着“我长大之后也要找一个那样的bad bitch” [00:50.340]他们二人在街角慢慢地走着 像是整个加州的国王（双关，California King床垫） [00:52.231]冰冷的手伸在她的裙子里 汽车呼啸而过 [00:54.660]是这样的，我的姑妈现在是个男人了 这很冒险 [00:58.157]挂着乐透彩票 希望自己中奖 [00:59.691]而我希望明天她能开车来接我 [01:00.929]这样我能坐在车的前排 [01:02.366]6×9英寸的车载音响 音乐在我座位下振动 [01:04.556]我的姑妈现在是男人了 [01:06.949]我问妈妈 为什么叔叔 舅舅们都不喜欢他？ [01:09.391]在家庭聚会的时候 为什么他们总是和他吵架？ [01:11.609]她回答我“我也说不清楚 [01:13.717]他们那帮人总是羡慕他能找到更多女人 [01:15.903]他赚更多钱 更吸引别人注意 所以引起更多嫉妒 [01:17.916]只要不叫他穷光蛋 就没那么冒犯人” [01:20.373] [01:21.671]我的姑妈现在是个男人了 [01:23.660]我觉得自己已经长大了 理解这件事了 [01:25.835]她反戴鸭舌帽 喝着Paul Masson白兰地 [01:28.025]在当时 叫别人Faggot不过是一种娱乐的消遣 [01:30.678]“Faggot, faggot, faggot”我们并不懂这词什么意思 [01:33.568]都是小学生 看待事物没有任何滤镜 [01:35.802]我姑妈变成了男人 我感觉很自豪 [01:37.964]她不是什么les，她只是和女的发生关系，这就是区别 [01:40.443]二年级时，我就是这么告诉我的朋友们的 [01:42.751]她从学校接我放学，同学们惊诧地盯着她的脸 [01:45.390]我早已习以为常的事情 他们并不理解 [01:47.717]我们开着车走了 没把他们放在心上 [01:50.363]我姑妈现在是个男人了 我们关系很好 [01:53.537]我长得很快 不再需要他照顾我了 [01:55.863]他给了我点零花钱 介绍了帮派 [01:57.674]樱桃味的空气清新剂放在汽车里 我生活滋润 没什么好抱怨的 [01:59.507]她甚至还在她家里帮我理发 我很喜欢那个发型 [02:01.443]她也是我第一个认识的 自己写说唱的人 [02:03.963]正是那一刻改变了我的人生 [02:06.176]满屋子都是她录的demo，香烟卡在窗口 [02:07.747]麦克风上架着相机 但里面都是男人和女人在一起 [02:10.643]我的姑妈现在是个男人了，我们都觉得没问题 [02:12.924]历史的影响向下渗透 让我们变得无知 [02:16.286]和我关系最好的表哥 说他要报答母亲 [02:18.390]于是学着我姑妈 从此变成了女人 [02:20.810] [02:21.215]德米特律斯（“我”的表哥）现在叫玛丽安了 [02:22.847]他现在能更自信地去实现人生的计划了 [02:25.154]但整个家庭都感到难以置信 [02:27.628]试图说服他们自己：“他只是生活放荡而已，没大问题” [02:30.086]他们说，从没在他身上看到过女生的影子，但我看见过 [02:32.415]那些芭比娃娃在他眼里散发着女神维纳斯的光芒 [02:35.384]他在自己四周建造了无人能攀越的墙 [02:37.955]小朋友们在一起打打闹闹时 唯独他笑得没有那么开心 [02:40.503]“faggot, faggot faggot”我们并不懂这个词的意思 [02:42.885]都是初中生 看待事物没有任何滤镜 [02:45.322]我总是惦记着我的这位表哥 [02:47.707]我知道他的真实面貌 但我依然爱他 [02:50.407] [02:51.269]德米特律斯现在是玛丽安了 [02:53.017]他现在真的是玛丽安了 不是闹着玩的 [02:55.902]在Bruce Jenner下定决心之前 他就改变了自己的性别 [02:57.703]活出他的真实 即便这意味着要去看外科医生 [02:59.969]我们有一段时间没有交流 他让人感觉更疏远了 [03:02.751]在我身边他感觉不自在 仿佛一切都带有冒犯 [03:05.100]我记得我们曾经都很幽默 口无遮拦 [03:07.927]但光阴荏苒 时间改变了一切 [03:10.863] [03:11.245]德米特律斯现在是玛丽安了 [03:12.892]还记得那年复活节 我们一起去做礼拜吗？ [03:15.110]我坐在教堂的长凳上 你很相信基督 [03:17.016]比那些直的男人们 宗教信念更强 [03:19.701]我感觉很讽刺 因为那牧师并不这么认为 [03:22.270]他说我表哥正在经历一些“困难” [03:24.914]他说，我们这个世界上的罪恶 [03:27.432]需要怪罪在德米特律斯这样的人身上（传统基督教一直以来不是非常接受LGBTQ群体） [03:29.476]我知道 牧师说的那些话让你感觉内心矛盾 [03:32.198]怀疑上帝是否还把你看作一个善良、纯洁的人 [03:34.636]你还是选择勇敢地把这口气咽下 服从地在身上涂油 [03:37.492]直到牧师单独把你拎出来，为了证明他的观点，说道 [03:40.455] [03:40.948]德米特律斯现在是玛丽安了 [03:42.663]姑妈现在是男人了，这对他来说伤害极强 [03:46.133]因为他是很虔诚的基督徒 [03:48.721]听到这话，我忍不住了，站了起来 [03:50.739]我说道“牧师先生，我们难道不应该爱自己的邻居吗？（来自《旧约》的《利未记》中19：18） [03:52.901]宗教的法规和真诚的内心，哪一个更重要？ [03:55.677]我知道她（注意性别指称的改变）从小就学习这个教义 [03:58.201]但那并不能证明她真实的想法和情感就是错的” [04:01.045]当时整座教堂气氛紧张 坏天使仿佛站在我肩上 [04:03.511]当时你看着我，微笑着说：“谢谢” [04:05.529]那一天，在严格的宗教和包容的人性之间，我选择了后者 [04:08.210]家庭关系也变得亲近了，我们互相理解、互相原谅 [04:10.244]我曾经年少无知，说了那个f开头的词（faggot） [04:12.680]我错误地以为当时的你也和我一样无知 [04:15.176]我曾经以为，如果说出口的话并不是故意的 [04:17.726]那语言不过是毫无意义的声音罢了 [04:20.382]是你让我质疑了自己曾经的看法，而那一刻 [04:22.490]你想起了我曾经办的一场演唱会 [04:25.227]那天我让一位白人粉丝上台演唱（2018年Maad City事件） [04:27.754]但不同意她和我一起说那个N开头的词 [04:30.620]你对我说：“Kendrick，你可不能自相矛盾呀 [04:33.040]要想真正理解爱，你得换位思考 [04:35.682]faggot这个词 我们都能一起说 [04:38.208]但前提是你得允许一位白人女孩说Nigga”