歌曲:《She Ran》
歌手:Karl Verkade
专辑:Soundtracks & Stories Ii: Prufrock Landscapes
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《She Ran》歌词:
[00:25.95]The night was cold and thin.
[00:28.72]The air was scantily clad in such a way that she felt that
[00:31.64]If she could but stop for a second, she could reach through it and grasp time.
[00:37.12]Arrest it, stop it, bring back the years of hope,
[00:42.87]Before the years of inevitably set in.
[00:46.46]But she did not stop.
[00:49.19]She ran.
[00:52.61]Air is a precious commodity; one she had taken for granted until it was all she had.
[01:00.79]Tonight she chased it; she felt as if her lungs could not get enough of it.
[01:08.21]With each new step, a new shallow breath,
[01:12.39]And a new resolve to continue filling her chest
[01:15.66]With the last thing in this world that was free.
[01:20.00]She knew that if she stopped, the night would end;
[01:23.53]And she did not want the night to end.
[01:26.50]The colors were too vivid.
[01:29.10]First the reds…the piercing reds.
[01:32.64]They swept out of the night sky in such an instant
[01:36.35]That she did not have time to witness their origin.
[01:39.41]But there they were.
[01:41.18]Swirling, brilliant reds that swept her up like she scarcely remembered.
[01:47.21]Indeed, did she even remember it?
[01:49.74]Or was this the embodiment of a shadow she always hoped to one day remember.
[01:54.94]The color floated around her as she ran, keeping up with her;
[01:59.28]Perhaps even lagging back a little so that she could keep up with it.
[02:03.83]She could not help it; she began to be entranced by its brilliance,
[02:08.85]Though she dared not slow down.
[02:11.09]She peered into it,
[02:13.13]Trying to imprint upon her memory every detail of its stunning lifeform.
[02:17.78]Then suddenly, did it change?
[02:21.60]The reds were not quite as flowing as they once were.
[02:25.12]They moved a little more awkwardly.
[02:27.91]She knew she had seen that movement before, somewhere.
[02:31.38]Then she remembered.
[02:32.90]Yes! The reds were walking!
[02:33.74]Alongside her they walked, still dancingly keeping up with her every running stride.
[02:41.10]Their shapes became more and more human.
[02:44.16]She recognized one of the colors.
[02:46.93]He looked into her eyes with the love that said that it was already finished;
[02:51.42]There was nothing she could do to ever spurn that love.
[02:55.40]Then another color touched her shoulder.
[02:59.03]She whirled her head around just in time to catch the shape
[03:03.46]Of a life that spoke of a bond with her that nothing but tears could form.
[03:06.44]In an instant, the motherly shape was gone,
[03:11.75]But reformed next to the figure on her other side, walking arm in arm with it.
[03:15.10]She almost stumbled.
[03:20.55]Something had touched her heels.
[03:22.72]She turned her head around long enough to see a child following behind her.
[03:27.15]It was a little girl…a little girl without colors.
[03:32.07]She skipped and sauntered, without a care in the world,
[03:36.58]But all the time keeping up with her.
[03:38.86]She wondered at the child; she wondered at childhood.
[03:43.33]So happy, so light; all its cares are immediate.
[03:49.63]There is no sense of that fact that time will one day have its way.
[03:54.65]No one tells children the truth.
[03:57.64]From somewhere behind the child, deep in the distance,
[04:02.39]She thought she saw another red.
[04:05.71]A different red.
[04:07.37]But she couldn't be sure; she had to keep her head straight onward,
[04:11.46]To immerse herself in the air, in the night.
[04:14.38]Nor did she have time to worry about the new color,
[04:18.05]Or the child, as the brilliant reds by her side had split into multiple colors,
[04:19.56]Each walking at its own pace somewhere by her side.
[04:27.08]They were dear to her…some moreso than others.
[04:30.97]All looked at her with varying degrees of knowingness.
[04:34.99]One in particular.
[04:36.66]He looked at her with a seriousness, and a questioning.
[04:40.01]His was by far the most tender touch, but not the most knowing.
[04:45.92]She slowed slightly, gasping for breath as she did.
[04:49.53]She turned to look at him, but her gaze was interrupted by the new color,
[04:54.76]Now creeping along the horizon next to her.
[04:58.72]It was a dark color, and threatened to swallow the red she now fought desperately to keep.
[04:58.82]She reached out for him; but slowly he faded, and slowly the dark approached.
[05:05.05]She had seen this before.
[05:16.28]In an instant he was gone, and in his place were two other brilliant reds.
[05:21.21]One for whom she cared, one with whom she was comfortable.
[05:25.33]The dark color approached.
[05:29.10]She tried to outrun it, but it was of no use.
[05:32.99]It swallowed up the two colors just as it had swallowed the last.
[05:37.95]She now saw that it was not a darkness, but a deepness.
[05:42.40]A deep red that spoke of something she knew all too well.
[05:46.21]It sent shudders through her life-stained body.
[05:49.92]The shudders continued as she ran.
[05:53.65]And continued.
[05:55.14]Until she had unknowingly discovered that she was quite at home with the shudders.
[05:59.50]She did not mind them.
[06:01.91]In fact, the deep red had mixed with the brilliant red so much so that
[06:06.44]Neither color was now better or worse for the mixing;
[06:12.20]But they were more real.
[06:13.88]Then, just as she was about to acquiesce to the new deep and brilliant red,
[06:18.24]It suddenly birthed a figure.
[06:20.65]And she hated.
[06:22.41]She hated its curves, and its smoothness, and its beauty.
[06:26.96]It tore from the rest of the colors, revealing its blackness.
[06:31.19]And then, in horror, she watched as it reached back
[06:35.52]Into the deep and brilliant red and pulled from it the loving figure.
[06:40.70]He looked at her as she ran with the same,
[06:43.42]Unquenchable love as before, as he faded off into the distance
[06:47.77]With the beautiful black figure.
[06:50.18]She ran harder; and at her heels she felt the child again.
[06:57.75]She turned again to look, and now saw a young lady, walking warily behind her.
[07:01.70]She knew that look; the colors had replaced the innocence.
[07:09.88]She had never been sure which was more desirable;
[07:13.15]But now she knew that neither could ever coexist peacefully with the other.
[07:17.61]The deep, brilliant red circled around her and comforted her.
[07:23.28]It did not split into its native colors, nor would it ever again.
[07:28.58]And she was grateful.
[07:30.52]Now there was another color.
[07:34.13]It crept out from behind her.
[07:37.12]She turned to look; were the colors coming from the child?
[07:41.48]But it was no longer a child, or a young lady.
[07:44.52]It was a young woman…a young woman with a war in her eyes,
[07:49.46]Between childlike hope and the lamentable wisdom of the inevitable.
[07:54.00]She recognized that look.
[07:56.87]And she ran faster.
[07:58.85]But she could not outrun the new color.
[08:03.01]It surrounded her,
[08:05.27]And here and there penetrated the deep and brilliant red with its yellow haze.
[08:09.88]It was a tired color…so tired that it was almost transparent,
[08:15.17]And blended in with the night in such a way that at times,
[08:19.17]In her gasping for air, she would inevitably suck in its yellow weariness as well.
[08:24.36]But she did not mind.
[08:27.52]A little weariness might even be nice…
[08:30.24]It made her feel as if her running was accomplishing something.
[08:34.05]Accomplishment.
[08:35.82]The reds spoke nothing of that.
[08:39.06]She wondered at her life, and for the first time, looked upwards.
[08:45.17]There were no colors to see through…just the night sky.
[08:48.81]The vastness looked down upon her as if it knew her.
[08:54.18]She slowed a little, letting her inconsequential state settle in over tired bones.
[09:00.24]The yellow crept wearily into her upward gaze,
[09:04.96]And she knew the child at her heels was now a woman.
[09:08.39]She did not turn, but ran onwards,
[09:11.93]knowing all too well the look in the pursuing woman's eyes.
[09:15.75]There would be tears, resolve, the tiniest glints of echoes that were once laughter;
[09:22.61]But most of all, the yellow weariness.
[09:26.68]Her legs were tired, her lungs empty.
[09:31.80]She inhaled without the benefit of air,
[09:35.35]As the deep and brilliant red moved underneath her and helped her forward.
[09:39.35]The yellow slowed her enough to where she could look around her a bit;
[09:44.65]She discovered trees…big, green trees towering over her on either side.
[09:51.02]
[09:57.17]And the little child softly padded around in front of her.
[10:01.65]The bright eyes of the child were now furrowed under a wrinkled brow,
[10:08.30]And the once beautiful cheekbones now protruded in
[10:11.84]A manner unworthy of the years and wisdom that made them such.
[10:16.23]At first she blushed with the hardness of the old woman's gaze,
[10:20.10]But then stared back at herself with the same knowing inevitability.
[10:25.97]The old woman took her hand in hers, and walked her down the path.
[10:31.09]She tried to run to keep up, but could not;
[10:36.01]The old woman dragged her softly and silently onward,
[10:39.88]As the deep and brilliant red carried her,
[10:42.71]The tired yellow enveloped her,
[10:44.80]And the green trees lapped gently at their own dust which formed her body.
[10:51.32]And she stopped running.
[10:55.78]
[11:06.44]It had been a miserable night,
[11:07.98]And they were excited to be able to go into the alley and play today.
[11:12.67]They bounced the ball against the cracked bricks of the tall buildings,
[11:16.74]And he even let her win a few times.
[11:19.68]But this turn, he was going to win.
[11:22.90]With all the bravado a big brother can muster,
[11:26.14]He slammed the ball at the corner of the building where the curb met the bricks.
[11:30.32]The ball ricocheted down the alley, towards an oncoming truck.
[11:34.54]As it did, it dislodged some old newspaper crumblings,
[11:38.70]And in the tired yellow light cascading onto the alley through the old buildings,
[11:43.50]They saw it.
[11:45.47]His sister screamed and went running back through the shabby aluminum door
[11:48.35]Into their mother’s apartment.
[11:51.78]But he couldn't move.
[11:53.57]He stared at her.
[11:56.24]
[12:00.97]They drove down the alley.
[12:02.91]What a miserable day.
[12:04.70]The night had been cold, and whenever the nights were cold,
[12:08.41]He knew it would be a long day.
[12:10.26]He watched as two children bounced a ball against the side of the grimy building.
[12:15.91]The ball got away from them and in the tired yellow haze peering through the buildings,
[12:19.27]He saw the ball dislodge some old papers;
[12:24.41]And underneath it, he saw another one.
[12:28.02]They stopped the truck and walked over to the body.
[12:31.36]It was not her…it was never her; it was a shell.
[12:37.11]He wondered who she was.
[12:40.53]They picked her up, and he knew that beneath his gloves, there was coldness.
[12:47.63]But her open eyes seemed peaceful; somehow that brought him comfort.
[12:52.51]He looked into her eyes as the red of the bag enveloped her body, and she was gone.
[12:58.28]It was then that he noticed the boy.
[13:04.50]He hadn't moved, but was staring at them with large, questioning eyes.
[13:09.59]He nodded at the boy as they carried her back to their truck,
[13:14.52]And attempted a smile through his mask.
[13:14.61]The boy was motionless.
[13:22.13]"We're just taking her someplace where she can rest," was all he managed.
[13:26.62]"I know what the green trucks mean," said the boy bravely.
[13:31.17]"But you've never seen this before?"
[13:34.79]The boy shook his head,
[13:36.91]Fighting back the tears for which he had been taught he was too old.
[13:40.46]The man stopped, and pulled his mask off over his head.
[13:45.76]He looked straight into the boy's quivering eyes.
[13:48.62]"It's very short. Don't waste it."
[13:53.30]He looked at the boy.
[13:56.60]The boy looked back at him.
[13:59.95]Not knowing what else to do, he slowly turned away,
[14:04.31]Leaving the boy standing alone in the alley;
[14:06.93]Older, whether he wanted to be or not.
[14:10.47]They put her in with all the rest.
[14:16.47]
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[by:Dean_Damn]
[00:25.95]这个夜晚寒冷又凄清
[00:28.72]在这么一条被稀薄的空气笼罩着的路上
[00:31.64]她想停下一秒,穿过这空气去抓住时间
[00:37.12]阻止它,停下它
[00:42.87]让时间回到这必然的年代到来之前那充满希望的岁月
[00:46.46]但她没能停下时间
[00:49.19]她开始奔跑
[00:52.61]空气是稀有物资;以前她呼吸得理所当然,现在她拥有的却只有空气
[01:00.79]这晚她追逐着空气;感觉就像自己的肺不能得到足够的空气一样
[01:08.21]每一步,每一口气,每一点决心
[01:12.39]都在用空气这世上唯一免费的东西
[01:15.66]填充着她的胸腔
[01:20.00]知道只要自己停下,夜晚就会结束
[01:23.53]而她不想让夜晚结束
[01:26.50]这些颜色是那么有生气
[01:29.10]一开始是红...刺眼的红
[01:32.64]他们瞬间就扫开了夜空
[01:36.35]她甚至还没来得及见证他们的产生
[01:39.41]但他们确实出现了
[01:41.18]明亮的红旋转着,就如她惊恐的记忆里一样席卷了她
[01:47.21]事实上,她真的记得吗?
[01:49.74]又或者这只是她一直希望某天能记住的一团阴影的具体化?
[01:54.94]她奔跑时,这颜色在她身边飘忽,跟着她
[01:59.28]可能还放慢了一点好让她能保持奔跑
[02:03.83]她情不自禁;她开始让红色的光亮进入自己
[02:08.85]尽管她不敢停下
[02:11.09]她凝视着那团红
[02:13.13]努力把那令人惊叹的生命形式的一切细节印刻进自己的记忆
[02:17.78]突然,它变了吗?
[02:21.60]红色不像之前那样飘忽了
[02:25.12]他们移动得有那么点笨拙
[02:27.91]她感觉自己曾经在某处见过这样的动作
[02:31.38]突然她想起来了
[02:32.90]对,红色在行走
[02:33.74]红色在她身边行走着,仍然跳舞一样地跟着她的每一个步子
[02:41.10]他们的形状变得越来越像一个人类
[02:44.16]她认出了其中一个颜色
[02:46.93]他看向她的双眼,充满爱意的视线在说这一切都结束了
[02:51.42]她没办法去唾弃这爱
[02:55.40]另一个颜色触碰了她的肩
[02:59.03]她马上转过头去抓住那东西和她之间的纽带
[03:03.46]但产生的仅仅只是眼泪
[03:06.44]突然,那慈蔼的形状消失了
[03:11.75]并在她另一边的人形身边重组了,和它手挽手地走着
[03:15.10]她差点摔倒
[03:20.55]有东西碰了她的脚后跟
[03:22.72]她使劲扭过头,看到了一个孩子在后面跟着她
[03:27.15]是一个小女孩...一个没有颜色的小女孩
[03:32.07]小女孩跳着,漫步着,对世上的一切漠不关心
[03:36.58]但一直跟着她
[03:38.86]她对这孩子感到奇怪;也对童真感到奇怪
[03:43.33]孩子们总是那么高兴,那么轻盈;担心的只有眼前的事
[03:49.63]时间总有一天会为所欲为这个事实在他们看来毫无道理
[03:54.65]因为没人告诉孩子们真相
[03:57.64]她觉得她看到在那孩子身后很远的地方
[04:02.39]出现了另一个红色
[04:05.71]一种不一样的红
[04:07.37]但她又不确定;她不得不继续前行
[04:11.46]让自己沉浸到空气里,夜里
[04:14.38]她也没有时间来担心新的颜色或者那个孩子
[04:18.05]因为她身边那明亮的红开始涌入不同的颜色
[04:19.56]在她身边的某处一步一步走着
[04:27.08]他们对她来说是那么亲近…比其他的更加亲近
[04:30.97]他们以不同的熟悉程度看着她
[04:34.99]尤其是其中一个
[04:36.66]他以一种严肃又怀疑的样子看着她
[04:40.01]他的触碰是迄今为止最轻柔的,却又不是她最熟悉的
[04:45.92]她慢慢地,轻轻地喘了口气
[04:49.53]然后转过去看着他,但她的视线被在地平线上
[04:54.76]蠕动着的新的颜色打断了
[04:58.72]那是个黑暗的颜色,散发着威胁,吞噬她现在竭尽全力保留下来的红
[04:58.82]她伸手去触碰他,但他消逝了,慢慢的,黑暗接近了
[05:05.05]她以前看到过这一切
[05:16.28]瞬间他就消失了,另外两个明亮的红色出现在了他原来的位置
[05:21.21]一个是她关心的,一个是让她安心的
[05:25.33]黑暗的颜色靠近了
[05:29.10]她努力地想要逃离,但没用
[05:32.99]它吞噬了这两个红色,就像它吞噬上一个一样
[05:37.95]她现在看清了,那不是黑暗,而是深沉
[05:42.40]深红显示出了某个她所熟知的东西
[05:46.21]这使她那充满人生污点的身体战栗
[05:49.92]她奔跑着,也在不断战栗
[05:53.65]她也继续跑着
[05:55.14]直到她不知不觉地发现她对这种战栗感很熟悉
[05:59.50]她也就不在意了
[06:01.91]事实上,深红和明亮的红混合了太多
[06:06.44]已经说不出谁好谁坏了
[06:12.20]但他们更加真实了
[06:13.88]然后,正当她快要默默接受这新的混合红色时
[06:18.24]它突然分娩出了一个形体
[06:20.65]而她恨这东西
[06:22.41]她恨它的曲线,恨它的丝滑,恨它的美丽
[06:26.96]这东西从那些颜色中分裂出来,显示出了它的黑色
[06:31.19]然后,她惊恐地发现,这团黑转回去
[06:35.52]从深红和亮红中扯出了她心爱的那个原本的红的形状
[06:40.70]她奔跑时,他用之前那种
[06:43.42]充满难以抑制的爱的眼神看着她
[06:47.77]同时,他和那美丽的黑色一起在远方消逝了
[06:50.18]她跑得更用力了;这时,她的脚跟又碰到了那个孩子
[06:57.75]她又一次转过去看,这次看到的是一个年轻姑娘,谨慎地在她后面走着
[07:01.70]她认得那个面容;颜色已经取代了之前小女孩的纯真
[07:09.88]她不知道小女孩和年轻姑娘哪个更令人满意
[07:13.15]但现在她知道她们两个不可能和平共处
[07:17.61]深红和亮红的混合在她身边盘旋并安抚她
[07:23.28]它没有分裂成原来的两个颜色,也再也不会分开了
[07:28.58]她很感激
[07:30.52]这时又出现了另外的颜色
[07:34.13]它悄悄地出现在她背后
[07:37.12]她回头去看;是那个孩子变出的颜色吗?
[07:41.48]但那不再是那个孩子或是那个年轻姑娘
[07:44.52]那是个年轻的女人…一个眼中有战争的女人
[07:49.46]那是孩童般的希望和不可避免的可悲睿智之间的战争
[07:54.00]她认出了这张脸
[07:56.87]然后她跑得更快了
[07:58.85]但她无法逃离这个新的颜色
[08:03.01]它包围了她
[08:05.27]又用黄色的烟雾从不同方向刺穿了深红亮红
[08:09.88]那是个模糊的颜色,模糊得都快要透明了
[08:15.17]它就那样混进了夜晚
[08:19.17]混进了她呼吸着的空气,她也无可避免地吸入了那黄色带来的疲惫
[08:24.36]但她不在意
[08:27.52]一点点的疲惫感可能更好
[08:30.24]这让她感觉她的奔跑是在为了完成什么
[08:34.05]或许是成就
[08:35.82]红色对那一点表示都没有
[08:39.06]她对自己的人生感到奇怪,也因而第一次向上看了一眼
[08:45.17]上面什么颜色都没有…只有夜空
[08:48.81]那夜空的广阔也向下看着她,就好像认识她一样
[08:54.18]她慢了下来一点,把她疲惫的骨头中那些无足轻重的情况稳定下来
[09:00.24]黄色疲惫地蠕动到了她注视着的上方
[09:04.96]她也知道跟在她后面的孩子现在是个女人了
[09:08.39]她没有回头,而是向前跑
[09:11.93]她太明白那追着她的女人眼里的东西了
[09:15.75]那眼里有泪,有决心,还闪烁着曾经的笑声那最微小的回音
[09:22.61]但更多的,是那黄色的疲惫
[09:26.68]她的双腿疲软了,她的肺被排空了
[09:31.80]她吸入的气体对她毫无益处
[09:35.35]这时深红亮红在她身下移动着,帮助她前进
[09:39.35]黄色减慢了她的速度,这时她才看了一点周围的情况
[09:44.65]她发现了树…两旁长满了巨大,绿色,比她高的树
[09:51.02]深沉的颜色把她带进了树叶围成的一条无法逃离的小路
[09:57.17]那个小孩蹑手蹑脚地窜到了她的前面
[10:01.65]那孩子明亮的双眼上方长出了沟壑般的皱纹
[10:08.30]岁月的沧桑和年老的睿智
[10:11.84]显现在那曾经美丽的颧骨上
[10:16.23]一开始,这年老女人的凝视强烈得让她脸红
[10:20.10]但她随即却用同样的目光看向了自己
[10:25.97]老人牵起了她的手,拉着她顺着小路走下去
[10:31.09]她想继续奔跑,但没办法
[10:36.01]老人拖着她轻轻地,静静地前进
[10:39.88]深红亮红搭载着她
[10:42.71]疲惫的黄色包围着她
[10:44.80]绿树轻柔地拍打着,用灰尘形成了一具她模样的躯壳
[10:51.32]她停止了奔跑
[11:06.44]那是个悲凉的夜晚
[11:07.98]他们都很激动,因为今天可以去小巷玩了
[11:12.67]他们在高大建筑那破烂的砖墙上弹球
[11:16.74]他甚至故意让她赢了几次
[11:19.68]但这一回合,他快赢了
[11:22.90]他逞能地
[11:26.14]把球拍向了建筑边缘没有露出砖的地方
[11:30.32]球弹回了小巷,弹向了一辆驶来的卡车
[11:34.54]球弹起了一些旧报纸
[11:38.70]建筑里那昏暗的黄色灯光死气沉沉地照进了小巷
[11:43.50]他们看见了(报纸下的东西)
[11:45.47]他的妹妹尖叫着穿过破旧的铝皮门
[11:48.35]跑回了妈妈的公寓
[11:51.78]但他动不了
[11:53.57]只能看着她
[12:00.97]他们把车驶进小巷
[12:02.91]多么悲凉的一天
[12:04.70]这个夜晚真冷,他知道
[12:08.41]这预示着这一天会过的很慢
[12:10.26]他看着两个孩子向污脏的墙上拍着球
[12:15.91]凭着建筑里透出的朦胧黄光,他看到球从他们那儿弹开
[12:19.27]击起了几张报纸
[12:24.41]而在报纸之下,他看到了另一具
[12:28.02]他们停下卡车走向了那具尸体
[12:31.36]那不是她…不是她的尸体;那只是一个空壳
[12:37.11]他想知道她是谁
[12:40.53]他们把她搬了起来,他能猜到自己手套碰到的东西有多冰冷
[12:47.63]但她睁开的双眼看起来如此平静;不知怎么的这让他感到安心
[12:52.51]把她装进红色装尸袋时,他一直看着她的眼睛,她逝去了
[12:58.28]这时他发现了这个男孩
[13:04.50]男孩没有动,而是用一双大大的,好奇的眼睛看着他们
[13:09.59]在他们把她放回卡车时,他对着男孩点了点头
[13:14.52]想透过面具笑一笑
[13:14.61]男孩面无表情
[13:22.13]“我们只是把她带去一个她能休息的地方。”他用了这样的措辞
[13:26.62]“我知道绿卡车是做什么的。”男孩鼓起勇气说
[13:31.17]“但是你以前从来没看过这个吗?”
[13:34.79]男孩摇了摇头
[13:36.91]把眼泪憋了回去,因为别人告诉他长大了不该哭了
[13:40.46]男人停下来,摘下面具
[13:45.76]他看向男孩那颤抖的双眼
[13:48.62]“(生命)很短的,别浪费了”
[13:53.30]他看着男孩
[13:56.60]男孩看着它
[13:59.95]不知道该再说什么,他慢慢地转身离去
[14:04.31]把男孩独自留在小巷
[14:06.93]老去,不管他是否愿意
[14:10.47]他们把她和其他那些放在了一起